Since the first day I came here, I've been asking God to give me a friend whom I can really relate to. And last night I've just met one. But ironically, he'll be having his holidays soon while I'll be away for my camp and I'm flying off in 3 weeks time.
I was having dinner with Wei Sian last night. We were talking there after dinner when he came to have his dinner as well.
Seeing that he was alone, I "forced" him to join us. The three of us were just talking and debating about praying for our food, going into mission, doing devotions etc etc etc.
Wanting to spend more time together, the two of us went for ABC after dinner.
And I guess that was when our relationship started to build.
Yet deep within I can't hide the fact that I feel sad because here is someone whom I really like, whom I can share my thoughts with,whom I can relate to, but we'll be heading separate paths soon.
I don't understand. If God wanted us to be friends, why not sooner? Why now?
But who am I to question God. He's timing is never wrong.
His experience is that he got closer with his former friends after being apart. Yet from my experience it's the other way round.
Well, may be as he'd said:"We'll meet in heaven."
By the way you phrase it, you seem to be in a deep relationship with that person, a he....now, why does this give me an odd feeling??
ReplyDeleteIt's great that u met someone u click with.
ReplyDeleteBut remember not to jump in too fast to a very close relationship, or even friendship. (what I mean is to completely be 100% open and 'menaruh' all your hopes on one person)
Only time can withstand the test. As the Chinese proverb goes: "Lu yao zhi ma li". (as time goes, you'll determine how strong the horse is)
Rest assured, I won't indulge in homosexuality : )
ReplyDeleteBut then I do believe in intimate friendships like the one between Jonathan and King David.
Well, I don't quite know, but maybe such relationships no longer exist in this new age and I'm just being too idealistic.. *sigh*