Mission Conference & Carry the Call 2010

I had the chance to attend my church's Mission Conference during the weekend.

Every year SIB Kuching has a Mission Conference as far as I can remember, which is like 10, 15 years ago.
While I was still young I would go there with my aunt. Though I didn't fully understand what was being said or shared by the missionaries, I always had a keen interest in the works that the missionaries were doing.

Carry the Call was a youth mission thing that was started by my church youth group in 2000. This year is the 10th and final Carry the Call. I was at the first one and now God brought me back to attend the last one. It's been 10 years. I was actually thinking whether to go for Carry the Call or go hang out with my friends, since it's mostly for youth and I feel a bit out of it. But am glad I went.

Looking at my younger brother and sister answering to the missionary/speaker's challenge, I was reminded of how I used to response as well. At first I was sure I do not have the ability to go and I was also quite sure I didn't have the money to give. So the only challenge I could take was to pray for missions.

Few years down the road, I was still a student and had no money, but I was brave enough to give a token towards mission. I remember there was a short term mission trip in my church, but I didn't have the money to pay for it and I didn't hink that I would be any use going there.

Fastforwarding to my time in college, God led me to Campus Crusade for Christ and during my 1st and 2nd year of college I had the opportunity to go to Japan, Mongolia and China for 2~3 weeks short term mission.
At that time I even thought of going off for 1 year STINT directly after graduating.

But things have not turned out the way I wanted. Obstacles came, new opportunities arose and the challenges that I said I would take was forgotten.

But last night it seems that God was speaking to me. Reminding me that long ago, when God asked, "Whom shall I send?", I think I did say that if God was asking me to go, I'd go.

But how do I know whether God wants me to go?

This morning during service the speaker was saying that many people want clear guidance and indication from God that He wants them to go to mission. The speaker then asked us, how many of us have clear guidance and indication that God wants us to stay?