Guidance

I guess even as I pray for God's guidance, I need to believe and trust that He is guiding me.

CrossOver

Had a wonderful weekend with my cell group in Penang.

It was our Friends 2 Cell Group Retreat.
But rather than making it just a playful fun holiday trip, the core decided that there should be more meaningful and spiritual significance to it. Which I agree.

So it was a retreat where we reflected on Joshua chapter 3 and 4, how God is and has brought us out of our Egypt and across our Jordan. It was also there that we launched our new cell name-CrossOver and got our personalized cell t-shirt.

It was a great time for us to do some reflection on how and what God is doing in our lifes.

For me personally it was quite good, looking and remembering how faithful God has been throughout my life.
It feels kind of strange that although I can see that God has been leading me all this while yet when I face with new challenges and decisions I still feel anxious and uncertain.

I need to train myself to turn my focus from the issues at hand to God.
Trusting that God has the best intention for me in mind and that His plans will prevail.


Father,

Thank you for all the wonderful things You've done in my life.
Thank you for the different experience that You've brought me through.
Even as I continue to face new and different challenges in life,
help me to trust in You and rely on You to bring me through.

In Jesus' Name,
Amen

Career Path

As I sat in the LRT this morning on my way to work I was thinking to myself that my career path is so unpredictable and because there are so many things that I don't know about the future, I can't plan too far ahead and I need to rely on God to guide me a step at a time.

I was with a company that was interested to do property development in Malaysia for more than 2 years.
Then I came to a shared service centre.
And I don't see myself doing any engineering related job in the near future.
If the government calls, I'll most likely be a PTD in Putrajaya.

I don't really know what's the long term plan God has for me in His mind.
I'm not sure how the skills and experience that He's bringing me through will play a part in the future.

But I believe that He has something in store for me and though I feel that it's a bit of a waste that my engineering knowledge that I studied so hard in university is not being put to use, I need to continue to trust in Him.


God,

May you mould me into the vessel that best suits Your purpose.

In Jesus' Name

Amen

Pizza Dinner

Somethings cannot be put into words. But some words will bring to mind the memories for the person involved.

Took a shower in office (no water to my house for few days) and was on my way to KL Sentral to meet a sister from cell just now.

She's not going to prayer meeting tonight but offered to drop me at church.

When I was passing Abdullah Hukum my brother sms asking whether I want to have dinner together.

If I was already in KL Sentral probably I would have to say no, but since I was still on the way I was glad to accept the offer.

Interesting thing was that I didn't know her sister was joining us as well.

We went to a Pizza Shop near Bangsar and had dinner. The food was quite good despite the strange location on top of a stationary shop.

The sister somehow paid for the dinner, which I still don't know why...

But anyway as she was preparing for her exam she didn't follow us to prayer meeting.

On the way back home from prayer meeting I had a wonderful conversation with my brother.

I had been thinking of the monologue/dialogue for a few days but didn't think that I'd bring it up.

Interesting.

Thank you God for such blessed time today. 

Releasing the Word

It's interesting and amazing to see how those around me receive words from God.

Hebrews 12:1-2 and Psalms 24:3-6
Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
look full in His wonderful face,
then hour by hour you will know His power,
then you know you have run a good race.
Give us CLEAN hands and a PURE heart.
He WILL receive the Lord's blessings.
Let us be the generation that seeks Him, O God of JACOB.
We shall not sell our birthrights for the things of the world.
Fix our eyes on Jesus!!!

One of my cellmates who's also attending URM
Before 3rd Service 10/10/10
Sermon for today was taken fr. Hebrews 12: 14-17


There is a stirring in the hears of the people as we pray.
It is like a baby in the womb, before the final birthing, there is major stirring in the body.
A birth of a new generation is about to happen.
Even before we have decided to go, He has already planted the seed and we will witness its birth.

One of our team member for Sabah Mission Trip.
During our 3rd training session on 19/08/10
We witnessed a scene of repentace that last took place during the revival 1977 revival in Kg. Meligan.

Discernment in Prayer

Was at DUMC Prayer Confernce just now. Will probably blog about it after the whole thing finishes.

This entry I'd just like to focus on discernment in prayer.

During YA Camp there were a moment where we tried to discern what God is saying while praying for another person. So just now when I was praying for a brother, I asked God for discernment and I had a feeling to pray about a topic, but I wasn't sure whether that's just my thinking alone or that is actually from God.
But on our way back we had a short conversation and I guess my "discernment" wasn't too far off topic. Am quite excited that I can actually "hear" what God is trying to say and pray for another person.

When the brother prayed for me, he thank God for my passion and desire everything, but he prayed that above all I'll know God's love, and through knowing God's love that I'd know God's will for me.
When he said that I was reminded of what Ps. Lee Choo prayed for me during YA Camp. Though the wordings might be a bit different, but the core remains that I need to put more of God into myself and know God's love for me.


God, is that you speaking?
How then do I know your love?
By spending time with You in reading Your Word and prayer I guess.

Help me O God.

In Jesus' Name,
Amen

Dare to Decide

Parts of the devotion material I read today.

I used to worry about making decisions for God. I used to be afraid to step out on faith and declare I was going to do something new that He'd shown me to do. I'd think, "What if I fail?" I was so scared of failing, I'd muddle around in indecision for weeks. Then one day I found out it wasn't my power that was going to carry it out anyway. But it took my decision to move God in on the scene. Once I decided what I was going to do and set it down firm, God backed me!

Isaiah 48:17
This is what the LORD says— your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: "I am the LORD your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go.

Workplace Ministry

Recently a friend of mine posted on her facebook status, "some conversations are priceless" and indeed I really agree with her. I guess yesterday was another milestone in my friendship with a friend. Sharing not just the ups in our lifes but the downs as well.

Anyway, yesterday morning I called my prayer partner. We were attending this follow up workshop of the Marketplace Conference in church on Saturday and we committed to have a time of prayer for our workplace every Monday morning.

I don't know many Christians in my office and I've been thinking of asking the few Christians I know to fellowship over meal since some time ago.

However I never got the courage to ask them officially. During the follow up workshop, we were challenge to start a prayer group in our office and I know that God was prompting in my heart. But to me it'll probably be easier to start a lunch fellowship than a prayer meeting.

So yesterday morning after praying with my partner, I send out the emails to 4 other Christians that I know, all of them from my IT/IS department.

Unfortunately 2 of them were on leave and another 2 didn't reply to my emails even though they've read it. Later on, 1 of the person, the manager of a team sitting nearby, walk over to me and said that actually someone else invited him to join a Christian Fellowship in office before. He said that the person who contacted him was from F&A department but during that time he was busy with a project and didn't join them.

Later on I got contact with the F&A person and found out that there's a bi-weekly CF on Thursday over lunch. But currently no one from IT/IS department is joining the fellowship.

I was delighted but a bit of mix feelings. I thought that there were no CF and I'd be the first to start one, but actually there is a gathering. But hey, it's amazing and wonderful that there actually is a CF gathering in my company.

I believe like what my prayer partner told me that probably this was a training and test for me. God didn't lead me to the CF group immediately but He wanted me to be obedient to Him and have a desire to do something for Him in my workplace.

And I'm glad I was obedient ^^

A bit excited about the people I'll meet during the CF.

Relationships

Today I made my best friend sad and angry.
But thank you God for being in charge and making things okay.

Why do I always hurt the ones I love the most?

24th Birthday

Luckily I'm in Malaysia. If I was in Korea I'd be 25 years old....but yeah, 1 more year to a quarter century.

I was back in Malaysia as well on my birthday last year, but didn't really manage to celebrate my birthday here. Celebrated the night before, flew from Seoul-KL, met my aunt, met wai peng and li ern then rushed off to camp the next day.

This year I met kai rou and jie ying for lunch, watched movie, went for dessert, ate a few slices of cake, went to DUMC to attend the service in conjuction with the Worship Conference, and I guess the grand finale was to have dinner with my Cell mates in a Korean restaurant called Arisu. I knew they were preparing something, but I didn't expect so many people to turn up, really thank you all of you^^

Getting some inspiration from this person, I'll like to write down 23 Experience that I had when I was 23.

#1 Attended theplan09 and that's where God seems to be asking me to come back to Malaysia.

#2 Wanted to start a relationship but it wasn't God's timing.

#3 Had the first Family Holiday Trip- to Korea

#4 God gave me an overall CGPA higher than what I asked for.

#5 Graduated with an Engineering Degree, again God's answer to prayer.

#6 Visited Phuket

#7 Visited Luang Prabang

#8 Visited Halong Bay

#9 Settled back in SIBKL

#10 Settled down in Friends 2 Cell.

#11 Went back to Kuching to care for my mom

#12 Rented a room in SS2 and I foolishly(?) signed a 1 year contract.

#13 The company that I've been working for 2.5 years wanted to halt the projects here.

#14 Wrote my first resume.

#15 Applied for a full time job, which has nothing to do with my major.

#16 Registered as a voter.

#17 First time attending Global Day of Prayer.

#18 Received my first taxable income.

#18 Met a good brother- hopefully we can be close friends.

#19 Got an interview from Albedo and Samsung but turned it down...trusting in God.

#20 Seeking God and praying for the nations through Prayer Meetings

#21 Completed Kairos Course- understanding what is crucial for the closure of the Gospel.

#22 Went for Sabah Mission Trip- time of reflection on God's work in Malaysia

#23 Attended my first YA Camp- did a reflection test which says I should do MBA and do management.