Books for 2011

List of books that I have but have yet to finish reading:

1. The Spiritual Secret of Hudson Taylor
2. Bario Revival
3. Secrets to Prevailing Prayer
4. Faith and Doubt
5. Boy Meets Girl
6. The Heavenly Man
7. Jesus Column (Korean)
8. Ready to Love (translated from Korean)
9. In His Step
10. A Blind Eye
11. God is a Matchmaker
12. Knowing God
13. Ugly Women Destroy the Country (Korean)

I'm sure I'll somehow ending up buying new books in 2011. Let's see how much of the above I can finish before 2011 ends.

Last Day of Work

My first official last day of work.

I have 2 weeks notice, but because I have 5.5 days of leave today is my last day in office.

I have plans in mind, but I shall wait till I spend time talking to God.
It's not an easy task, considering that I'm the hyperactive type who'll want to take things into my own hand.

But I shall wait on God.

Hopefully He doesn't make me wait too long.

Recently a friend of mine who is contemplating about his career had this verse from God:

Psalm 28

Of David.


1 To you, LORD, I call;
you are my Rock,
do not turn a deaf ear to me.
For if you remain silent,
I will be like those who go down to the pit.

2 Hear my cry for mercy
as I call to you for help,
as I lift up my hands
toward your Most Holy Place.

I guess now is the time for me to call out to God. I'm sure He will not turn a deaf ear to me. Just that I'm nervous that He'll make me wait for an extended period of time..

God,
 
I want to trust in your guidance.
Give me the patience and faith to trust in You.
You have been gracious to me all these while.
Let me trust in Your unfailing faithfulness again.
I pray that even as I wait upon Your guidance You will open the doors for me.
 
In Jesus' Name
Amen

Handed in my Letter

Officially handed in my letter to my boss.

Been thinking, talking, praying about it. Decision was made last week. But we agreed to send in the letter today.

So now I need to wait on God.
I want to wait on God.
Spending time to seek His direction and guidance before I make my next move.

Many people will not understand the decision I make.

Guess a lot of time the journey I've chosen is a lonely one.


Went to BASF Malaysia Sdn Bhd in Bukit Jelutong this morning.
It's a program BASC do for new joiners. But I didn't manage to go the past few times due to lack of man power in my team. Hmm..6 months. Fast? or Slow?

Discover Our Calling in Life

Making choices without considering God is easier. I don't have to worry whether I'm making the right or wrong choices. Just make the most sound and correct choice and don't regret about it.

But when I put God in the picture things get a bit more complicated. I want to make the right choices in God's sight. But I'm not able to discern which is the correct one. The most sound and decent option by man's standard may not be what God has in mind.

Probably it is fear. Fear that I've made the wrong choices. Like the decisions that I've made recently regarding my career. I really don't want to do something if I know it's not from God. I prayed, I tried to wait on Him, I asked people to pray for me. But I still don't know. Then the night before I had to make a decision I had a strange dream. Was that a sign from God? Or was it just a random thought? I've never made any decision base on my dream. My brother says that my decision was due to a lack of faith. But he didn't know that the whole day I was trying to do what he thought was right. If God had given me the slightest indication I would have gladly done so. But none of that came. I only had a strange dream from the night before.

Today one of my colleague send me a link on a sermon her husband preached recently, called Discover Your Life Calling. It suggested 5 questions to help people discover their calling:
1. What do you feel joy doing?
2. What are you good at doing?
3. What do you feel are the biggest needs of the people around you?
4. What is your unique personality?
5. What do your trusted friends say?

But what spoke to me more was this paragraph:

Having said that, our focus should not be just on methods to discern God's will. We are to trust in God Himself. There is no system that ensures you never make mistakes, but we can rely on a God of grace who will guide us and teach us even when we make mistakes. He is big enough to rescue us and lift us up when we fall. Otherwise, we would live in constant fear, always searching for the perfect formula for discovering God's will so we won't make any mistakes.

God,

If I've made the wrong choices please forgive me. Kindly guide me back to the path that You've intended. Even as I face new challenges and need to make new decisions everyday, I pray that You'll give me a discerning mind and an obedient heart.

Probably it's not biblical, but I pray that You'll close the doors that are not from You till I am more mature to discern which open door is from You.

Help me O God.

In Jesus' Name
Amen

The Inner Witness

Been going through some confusion lately. Not sure where is God leading me in my career and not sure how to make decisions cause I'm not sure which is the 'correct' decision.

On the way back from prayer meeting yesterday my brother was saying that sometimes we focus too much on our prayer items that we do not focus enough on God. He was also asking me how much time I spend waiting on Him.

Coincidentally or miraculously today as I do my devotion the article was on this issue of hearing from God.

The Inner Witness

Do you ever have trouble hearing from God? Do you find yourself caught in confusing circumstances needing guidance, and yet even after praying and reading the Word- you're still not sure what God wants you to do?

I've had that experience. I knew His written Word and acting on it changed my life. But I was uncertain when I had to make decisions about things the Word didn't specifically address. Things like whether to move to one city or another, for example.

What held me back was my ability to know that I was doing the right thing. You see, God's written Word and the inward witness are two different things. They never contradict each other, but they're both a vital part of our walk with God.

God expected Israel, for example to obey His written Word. But He also said to them, "Obey my voice" (Jer 7:23) because He wanted them to know His will in specific situations That's what happened when Israel invaded Jericho...

..But exactly how, you may wonder, does God speak to us? Does He just shout down to us from heaven?

Not usually! Romans 8 says the Holy Spirit bears witness with our spirit. That means that God's directions come from inside, not outside, of you.

At times when you hear His guidance, you may even wonder, "Was that me, Lord, or was that You?" That's because God doesn't normally inject thoughts directly into your mind from the outside. Instead, He speaks to your spirit, and your spirit translates it into a thought.

Tune in today to that inward witness, to that quiet knowing, that urging, prompting and leading arising within you.

If when you hear it, it sounds like you, don't be surprised. It is you! It is your spirit being influenced by the Spirit of God! After you're born again, your spirit is a safe guide because you are born of God's Spirit. You have His nature. And the Holy Spirit lives in your spirit to teach you and to give you direction.

Gloria
From Faith To Faith
A Daily Guide To Victory

Guidance

I guess even as I pray for God's guidance, I need to believe and trust that He is guiding me.

CrossOver

Had a wonderful weekend with my cell group in Penang.

It was our Friends 2 Cell Group Retreat.
But rather than making it just a playful fun holiday trip, the core decided that there should be more meaningful and spiritual significance to it. Which I agree.

So it was a retreat where we reflected on Joshua chapter 3 and 4, how God is and has brought us out of our Egypt and across our Jordan. It was also there that we launched our new cell name-CrossOver and got our personalized cell t-shirt.

It was a great time for us to do some reflection on how and what God is doing in our lifes.

For me personally it was quite good, looking and remembering how faithful God has been throughout my life.
It feels kind of strange that although I can see that God has been leading me all this while yet when I face with new challenges and decisions I still feel anxious and uncertain.

I need to train myself to turn my focus from the issues at hand to God.
Trusting that God has the best intention for me in mind and that His plans will prevail.


Father,

Thank you for all the wonderful things You've done in my life.
Thank you for the different experience that You've brought me through.
Even as I continue to face new and different challenges in life,
help me to trust in You and rely on You to bring me through.

In Jesus' Name,
Amen

Career Path

As I sat in the LRT this morning on my way to work I was thinking to myself that my career path is so unpredictable and because there are so many things that I don't know about the future, I can't plan too far ahead and I need to rely on God to guide me a step at a time.

I was with a company that was interested to do property development in Malaysia for more than 2 years.
Then I came to a shared service centre.
And I don't see myself doing any engineering related job in the near future.
If the government calls, I'll most likely be a PTD in Putrajaya.

I don't really know what's the long term plan God has for me in His mind.
I'm not sure how the skills and experience that He's bringing me through will play a part in the future.

But I believe that He has something in store for me and though I feel that it's a bit of a waste that my engineering knowledge that I studied so hard in university is not being put to use, I need to continue to trust in Him.


God,

May you mould me into the vessel that best suits Your purpose.

In Jesus' Name

Amen

Pizza Dinner

Somethings cannot be put into words. But some words will bring to mind the memories for the person involved.

Took a shower in office (no water to my house for few days) and was on my way to KL Sentral to meet a sister from cell just now.

She's not going to prayer meeting tonight but offered to drop me at church.

When I was passing Abdullah Hukum my brother sms asking whether I want to have dinner together.

If I was already in KL Sentral probably I would have to say no, but since I was still on the way I was glad to accept the offer.

Interesting thing was that I didn't know her sister was joining us as well.

We went to a Pizza Shop near Bangsar and had dinner. The food was quite good despite the strange location on top of a stationary shop.

The sister somehow paid for the dinner, which I still don't know why...

But anyway as she was preparing for her exam she didn't follow us to prayer meeting.

On the way back home from prayer meeting I had a wonderful conversation with my brother.

I had been thinking of the monologue/dialogue for a few days but didn't think that I'd bring it up.

Interesting.

Thank you God for such blessed time today. 

Releasing the Word

It's interesting and amazing to see how those around me receive words from God.

Hebrews 12:1-2 and Psalms 24:3-6
Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
look full in His wonderful face,
then hour by hour you will know His power,
then you know you have run a good race.
Give us CLEAN hands and a PURE heart.
He WILL receive the Lord's blessings.
Let us be the generation that seeks Him, O God of JACOB.
We shall not sell our birthrights for the things of the world.
Fix our eyes on Jesus!!!

One of my cellmates who's also attending URM
Before 3rd Service 10/10/10
Sermon for today was taken fr. Hebrews 12: 14-17


There is a stirring in the hears of the people as we pray.
It is like a baby in the womb, before the final birthing, there is major stirring in the body.
A birth of a new generation is about to happen.
Even before we have decided to go, He has already planted the seed and we will witness its birth.

One of our team member for Sabah Mission Trip.
During our 3rd training session on 19/08/10
We witnessed a scene of repentace that last took place during the revival 1977 revival in Kg. Meligan.