Pegawai Tadbir dan Diplomat

Lately I've been hearing news of my seniors trying to get rid of their PTD's job by trying to secure a job in a Korean company or further their studies in local university.

I was neutrally waiting to see whether the government will call me back to work for them. But after seeing how they can't even stand it for 6 months I begin to have doubt as well.

One senior said that most of the times he had to work till 6,7 or 8pm. Another said that it's boring. They say that it varies according to the department that you're in.

The senior that came to my company said that he couldn't see any future working there. The pay is low and a promotion is not within sight. They have 2 years contract with JPA before becoming permanent staff and even after that they don't know when they'll get promoted. The annual increment is just RM 85 a year!

I began to feel a bit depressed. Wondering how will I cope with in. I want to settle down fast and have my own family. But earning so little I wonder whether I can even support myself let alone a family.

I guess I tried to run away from reality by taking long naps in the afternoon during the weekend. Didn't want to think much about it.

Talked to a friend about it. Guess this is where practical issues clash with faith.

I'll still follow and obey if God calls me to, but I'd like to serve Him with a joy and a cheerful heart.

2 Corinthians 6: 1-10
1As God's fellow workers we urge you not to receive God's grace in vain. 2For he says,


"In the time of my favor I heard you, and in the day of salvation I helped you."I tell you, now is the time of God's favor, now is the day of salvation.

3We put no stumbling block in anyone's path, so that our ministry will not be discredited. 4Rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great endurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses; 5in beatings, imprisonments and riots; in hard work, sleepless nights and hunger; 6in purity, understanding, patience and kindness; in the Holy Spirit and in sincere love; 7in truthful speech and in the power of God; with weapons of righteousness in the right hand and in the left; 8through glory and dishonor, bad report and good report; genuine, yet regarded as impostors; 9known, yet regarded as unknown; dying, and yet we live on; beaten, and yet not killed; 10sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything."